This is the week our sweet baby was due to be born. When we found out we were pregnant we were so excited that we would have a new addition to our family to celebrate this Christmas.
A friend of mine invited me to the come to the Living Christmas Tree at her church this weekend. When she gave me the ticket it read, "A Baby Changes Everything."
Tonight at church we had a women's banquet. The speaker had a lot of great things to say, but one in particular was how Mary Magdalene waited on Jesus. She talked about all the different times she waited and then applied it to us and reminded us to wait on Jesus. She mentioned that many of the women in the room were waiting on something whether it be a baby, a spouse, a family member or a friend... Jesus reminds us to sit at his feet and wait on him.
It has been these subtle reminders this week that make our baby waiting hard.
On top of that, since the miscarriage I have had issues with my cycle. After almost 9 months of issues and many different treatments from the doctor, he decided to do a hydrosonogram to see if I had any irregularities in my uterus. The results of the sonogram were inconclusive (although painful), so he has decided to do a hysteroscopy on Friday, December 17. I will have to go under anesthesia for this procedure so that he can use a small camera to look at the inside of my uterus. This will be done to find out the cause of all the abnormal bleeding, which could possibly be polyps or fibroids. He also mentioned that my uterus is out of balance and that he will scrap the endometrium to help shed some of the extra-thick lining on my uterus. I have 2 pre-op appointments on Wednesday next week and then I will have the procedure on Friday.
We left this appointment extremely hopeful. My doctor is hopeful that this may help with our fertility issues and we are excited for what the Lord has in store.
It is interesting to go back through this hopeful feeling again. As you can imagine, after 3 years of trying, the loss of our baby, and then 9 months of bleeding, we were feeling a little discouraged; however, at the same time we have also been getting very interested in adoption. We do not yet know what Lord's will for us in regards to children, but we are hopeful.
I am reminded at this special time of year, during this season of waiting on a baby, that the baby we are waiting on is actually our Lord, born as a baby, died, resurrected and living in Heaven. We anxiously await the return of our Lord and we find hope in Him alone during all the trials of life.
I hope that you too are also awaiting the celebration of the birth of our Saviour. During this busy time of year, we sometimes need to be reminded to just wait on Jesus.
Merry Christmas Y'all!